Well, another day and hopefully a better mood.
We`re meant to be travelling down to Oxford to stay with my girlfriend`s family. Although looking at the weather I don`t know how likely that is.
But if we go then I won`t be able to wish everyone a Happy New Year so i`ll do it now.
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Friday, December 30, 2005
Well, another day and hopefully a better mood.
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Just finished watching Family Man on Ch4.
I really could do with a glimpse of a different future right now.
Feel like i`ve been told off like a fuckin 5 year old...again.
I`m trying not to just rant here and keep calm. But to be honest. I wonder sometimes.
Ok, i`m gonna leave it at that. Feel better for hitting the keyboard a few times now.
at 10:25 pm
Well I wasn`t even awake properly and I managed to upset my girlfriend.
By some bizarre twist of fate my girlfriend was wide awake first thing this morning and I was soooo sleepy.
So she did her best to wake me up, which pissed me off. Cos when I`m awake I just get up and play on the pc.
So I stuck my ipod on and started drifting off again.
So now she`s grumpy with me. And I haven`t even got out of bed yet!
Sigh, so now i`m laid here all alone as even the cats have abandoned me.
Ok, my attempt at sympathy is over.
at 10:27 am
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
I`m ashamed to say i`ve been enjoying myself far too much and really couldn`t be bothered to blog anything the past few days.
Also getting Dawn of War: Winter Assault didn`t help. Although not getting to play that nearly as much as I want.
Damn food n drink getting in the way.
Anyway, major snowy weather today. Garfield wasted no time going outside to test out his snow paws.
at 8:30 pm
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Bloody typical. First day of my hols and i`m wide awake! Been wide awake since 6am!
Still feeling seriously festive though. Even though technically it`s the weekend, so wouldn`t be going to work anyway. Ah well.
So I was laying in bed thinking I should do my own little review of the year. Couldn`t really think of anything much so, as I won`t see any of them until next year thought I would rant about the people I work with!
Ok, then I thought, hmm what if any of the read this. So decided, what if I could condence it down to one word to say how I feel about them. So here goes.
This will probably be the most boring blog entry i`ve made this year. But it`s early, i`m awake, so you can suffer too :)
That`s about it really. The rest I don`t really care about one way or the other.
Well that killed off a few minutes. Time to take to Neverwinter Nights.
Lets go kill some orc!
at 7:58 am
Friday, December 23, 2005
Well i`ve sobered up enough from the Christmas bash to write a blog entry. Started drinking at 1pm and finished at about 5pm, which doesn`t sound long, but it doesn`t take me long to get pissed. Especially on an empty stomach.
Anyway, I kept losing at pool.
So, i`m soaking in the bath. Just for a change. And shall be attempting some food later.
I was up at 6:45am and on my way to Tesco to purchase chocolate products for my nearest and dearest.
Unfortunately the place was already heaving and the roads were filled with people who I guess had never driven a car before.
What is it about Christmas that makes people lose the ability to drive! I swear the past few days I`ve come up against more looney drivers than I have all year.
I don`t mind when i`m in the works van because i`m bigger than these little piddly cars. But when i`m pootling in my punto (heh), it`s another matter!
Well, i`m preparing for semi-hibernation, and don`t have to go back to work until the 9th (yay!).
So the Christmas spirit is well and truly in me now!! (stop sniggering, didn`t mean it like that!)
at 8:19 pm
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Ok, i`m all set for Christmas. All the presents have been bought and have arrived. Done ALL my shopping online this year. It`s been building up and up as the years have gone by until this year I hit the 100% mark. Well, actually it`s probably 99% as I really need to get some chocolate type presents for my girlfriend.
Life will NOT be worth living if I don`t!
The food is in.
The booze is in.
The Radio Times has been read through in detail and all programs/films I want to watch have been highlighted.
The wrapping paper has been bought.
I`m good to go. Christmas can start now!
Last day at work tommorrow. Work until 12 then off to the pub.
I`m not a day drinker so will probably last about an hour. I`m trying to figure out how to go drinking with my workmates and go to Tesco for chocolately delights at the same time.
I haven`t formulated a plan yet!
I`m hoping for a Christmas bonus as I don`t really feel like pissing my own money up the wall.
Then after that I can sit infront of the tv with my box of biscuits for cheese, alcoholic beverage and tv guide and go into semi-hibernation.
at 9:53 pm
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
You are the Tower card. The Tower represents a
sudden, drastic change. This change can be
incredibly freeing. It can be a change in the
way you think, or a change in environment. The
physical body may be healed of a long illness
in a seemingly miraculous way. Dramatic change
may lead you into a completely different career
or lifestyle. On the negative side of things,
you may suddenly lose your fortune or have an
experience that shatters your sense of
identity. The Tower that crumbles under the
lightning bolt is the physical and may be
indicative of some aspect of your physical
world. But as the Tower crumbles it reveals a
sturdier foundation, something which perhaps
you did not expect but which, nevertheless,
arrives fully formed and strong into your life.
Image from: The Ibis Tarot deck
Which Tarot Card Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
at 12:47 pm
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
I`m wondering..what makes for an interesting blog. Other than braless tuesday ;)
Which I don`t think i`m really suited for.
I`m just meandering through the miriad (sp?) of blogs out there and wonder how these people attract other people to read their stuff. I mean, some of them are as trivial and rambly as mine. Yet have tons of comments.
I`m guessing they have lots of online friends...unlike Billy No Mates here!
I think i`ve subbed to most of the blog directories. Got my blog link on my profile pages....oooh, except my Yahoo profile I think!
And another thing. Do you find yourself reading blogs belonging to the opposite sex? I tend to read blogs written by the female persuasion of the opposite sex. Don`t know why. Maybe us blokes are..well..a bit boring.
at 8:15 pm
Monday, December 19, 2005
Well, in a break from me pouring my heart out here, which is emotionaly exhausting, and after reading gemmak`s blog about Tilly. I got to thinking how much Garfied has changed over the past year.
This is from 15 November 2004. I tried to get two similar shots to show how much he`s grown. I wanted one from about this time in December 2004 but couldn`t really find similar shots.
And this is how he looks now! Taken a couple of weeks ago. He can hardly fit on his pedestal! Not that stops him trying.
Hope he stops growing soon!!
at 7:42 pm
Sunday, December 18, 2005
I`m sat here feeling kinda detatched from the world.
I think it`s the deer in the water, helpless as their surroundings are consumed.
It`s like a switch has been flipped inside me.
I`ve been sat here trying to think how to spend the day. Yesterday I was feeling fine. I build today up so much I end up not knowing how to get through it.
So I surfed the web a bit, checked ebay for last minute gifts, read my bloglines rss feeds. And came across this pic from a website. I don`t know why, but it seems to sum up how I feel at the minute.
My stomach knots up and I feel a lump in my throat as I look at the deer. Wishing I could help them, feeling their fear. I empathise far too much.
Happy Birthday David.
I miss you.
at 9:33 am
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Another problem solved. Just waiting for my personal tester gemmak to give me the all clear. Damn tag-board. Served me right I guess for not reading the site properly about popups in the free version.
As I use firefox all the time I never saw them. Anyway, all is fixed and using shoutbox now. Seems a lot better.
Well i`ve got bloglines, blogrolling, del.icio.us, frappr and 43 things running on my blog, is there anything i`ve missed I should be adding? :).
I think i`m addicted to adding these things.
at 10:33 pm
Friday, December 16, 2005
Ok, so am i`m wondering if i`m normal.
Maybe it`s a stereotypical comment to make about women taking long soaks in the bath. But is it normal for a man to like taking long baths.
No bubbles tho!
and no Kenny G on low in the background!
Ok, so I have candles. But that`s only because i`m too lazy to change the lightbulb. I am in here with a glass of Jack Daniels and I am playing on my laptop, so that has to be at least a couple of man points in my favour.
at 7:56 pm
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Hmm, so how far does someone have to go before crossing the line between being sarcastic and down right arrogant?
A guy I work with is dangerously close to being nothing more than an arrogant little twat. If he isn`t already in some people`s eyes.
I get on ok with him, but that last couple of days I could seriously have damaged him.
It`s not like he gets personal or anything. It`s just his attitude. He can`t have a single conversation without getting all sarcastic about something or someone. I agree with what he`s saying a lot of the time. Hell, i`ve even stood up for him.
But now it`s like his confidence is really warping into arrogance.
I`m looking forward to the holidays and getting away from all of them. So much for goodwill to all man!
at 7:16 pm
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Well i`m feeling kinda bad. We sold a ton of lego on ebay and made a pile of money. But as I work all day I had to leave my girlfriend to package up all the items. Which most of the time isn`t a problem.
But we had a lot of Lego...a LOT.
She did a fantastic job. But she gets stressed easily. Which gets me stressed cos I think she blames me for the way things go wrong when she is stressed. Or something like that.
So I get all arsey.
But I really do appreciate everything she does.
I guess i`m writing all this cos I know she`ll read it.
I`m also in a funny mood because of my brothers birthday on Sunday. So i`ve been doing my yearly ritual of changing the layout and stuff of my pitiful excuse for a website.
I started messing with making a website soon after his death. Make like a little memorial or something. It kinda helped me through it in a way. The pictures page is only partly done. I`m hoping to have it done before Sunday. Dunno why. It just seems to help.
Anyway, it`s at http://homepage.ntlworld.com/paddee/ if you feel like looking.
at 9:05 pm
Monday, December 12, 2005
Ok, so i`m laid in the bath with the laptop at my side getting slightly tingly!
No, not for anything like that you pervy people.
In less than 6 mins the first of my lego castle items goes on ebay, it`s currently at £6.58. I cannot believe how much i`m gonna make on all my old lego. A load of lego space stuff went yesterday and 15 items are going today, a few more quid and i`ll have made £500!!!
So why am I writing all this drivel here!?...i`ve gotta do something to pass the last few minutes before the auctions start to end!!
I need a drink! I just keep thinking of all the lovely things I could buy with it, knowing full well it`s all gonna go towards a new fridge freezer. Which we do need.
Ok, less than a minute to go...time to go sit on ebay and hit f5 a lot!!
at 8:49 pm
Friday, December 09, 2005
In a little over a weeks time it should be my brother`s birthday. He would have been 33.
We should be growing older disgracefully.
We should be painting our Warhammer 40k models in readiness for him to beat me yet again on the battlefield, his Marines against my Orks.
We should be having marathon Red Dwarf-fests and eating too much pizza.
We should have been sitting infront of the tv on a Sunday when the World Superbike season was on screaming at which ever british rider was on a Ducati to win.
We should be going out on a Saturday night and I watch in awe as women giggle all around him.
I should have been getting him hooked on Neverwinter Nights so we can dungeon quest together.
I should be doing my best to explain the rules to Magic the Gathering.
But we won`t. And i`ll not do many of those things without him. I`m lost without his unending quick wit and jokes that we used to bounce off each other. Usually at the expense of my ex-wife. Not that she minded, she usually just slapped us round the head like two naughty kids.
And that`s how we were. Despite all lifes hassles we never really grew up. Why am I writing all this now?
I guess cos all these thoughts are bouncing around in my head. In a weeks time they might have faded into a frustrating mess inside my head. Jumbled up like the rest of my thoughts usually are.
I`m trying to decide how to spend the day. I feel like watching all 3 lord of the rings films back to back. Just curl up on the settee with the fire on and detatch myself from real life.
Sounds like a plan.
at 10:41 pm
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Ok, i admit it. I`m not the calmest person in the world today. I`m not handling my girlfriends mood swings at all well today. I`m not handling people well today. I just wish they`d all fuck off sometimes.
I feel calm in myself, but as soon as anybody says anything I can feel the blood surging! Probably isn`t helped by the fact I listened to Rage Against the Machine, Slipknot and other tranquil type bands today.
I just feel the need to rage
Feel I need something to break.
My Sip ATA box broke today when I was doing my damndest to try and save some money on our electric bill. Long story. Won`t rant about it now.
And the only time anybody felt like talking to me today was to try and sort their pc problems out.
I need a break from humanity.
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Ok, i`m bored. I`ve got nothing to say. I`ve read through my rss feeds for my fave sites like digg.com and slashdot.org for anything interesting to share with my dear reader...er...readers. And can`t find anything that isn`t way too nerdy that it makes my girlfriends eyes cross and sigh at me in despair, umm she sighs at me...not her eyes!
The one thing I did find I also found that gemmak blogged it so don`t want to feel like i`m copying. Although it is very interesting so go here for a read.
So if anyone has any cool sites, links, articles let me know.
If you still look in on my blog gemmak I hope you don`t mind me constantly linking to your blog! :)
at 7:47 pm
Monday, December 05, 2005
Ok, so how long do you think you should wait for an item you won on ebay to be posted to you? (after paying of course!) 3 days? 5 days? 7 days? 10 days? how about 15 frickin days! and still no sign.
I`m being patient, well up until now anyway. Sent a 2nd email off to ask the whereabouts of my item today and still waiting for a reply. I also don`t want negative feedback left if I get stroppy as this seller is likely to do.
I`m tempted to put her email address in this post and get people to pester her about it....but I won`t...not yet anyway...grrr.
at 7:49 pm
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Well as I lay here in the bath...hmm, maybe I should do a sunday bath post. Anyway, as I lay here Garfield is destroying the upstairs hallway. My girlfriend is clearing out the spare room so there are bags n boxes everywhere which are obviously hiding god knows what according to Garfields imagination.
And what is it with cats and closed doors...they`re just meant to be open I guess! I had the bathroom door closed earlier, which is a big no no according to Miaow. And she is quiet persistant about this. The door wasn`t closed fully so it was on the latch, but enough so it was wedged in the door frame. I`m sure she was taking run ups and basically just headbutting it until it opened!
Anyway, pleased with her moments work of opening another door she looked at me, smiled...I swear she smiled! miaowed at me and walked off.
In search of other doors no doubt.
at 7:12 pm
Saturday, December 03, 2005
More blog surfing. Damn I wish I could take and manipulate pictures like this guy. My girlfriend is the whizz with the digital camera, mainly cos it`s never out of her hand.
I just aim it at what I want to take a picture of and hope for the best. Which is a shame as I love mucking about with pictures in Photoshop. I just don`t have the patience, or talent. Although my girlfriends Mum and her new husband`s wedding video came a step closer to completion. So I guess i`m good at some things.
at 5:30 pm
Friday, December 02, 2005
Ah, another typical Friday and another typical week at work over with. I`ve been reassured my job is safe. Although I still have my doubts. Our manager had to tell one of the lads he`s being laid off today which was a bit shitty tho. But I was pleased I was gonna be ok, which kinda made me feel a bit guilty.
I don`t know how it started but we ended up playing 'whats the capital of...'. I think my grey cells are really starting to deteriorate as I couldn`t remember half of them!. Of course I do have the excuse that it`s been about 20 years since I was in a geography lesson. But without running to the atlas try naming the capital cities of
off the top of your head. I did find a really good website on the works computer and ended up running in and out the office to check the answers...mainly to stop the arguments before there was bloodshed!
at 10:43 pm
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Hmm, so how does one become a blog of note? Can`t ever imagine my mundane ramblings would come even close. Just started reading Bored Housewife`s blog as she seems to have hit the bigtime. I think 'braless tuesday' helps ;) Maybe I should try pantless thursday or something, although I fear any readers I do have would be totally scared away. Anyway, check out her blog `cos it`s pretty funny stuff.
I`ve been randomly hitting other peoples blogs by way of the 'next blog' button. The results tend to range from the normal/mundane (i.e. like mine) to the beyond weird. The amount of porn blogs is astounding. Do people actually read them (not that I did of course!). It`s either that or foreign language blogs. It`s fun for a few minutes to see what blogs are out there. And kinda warm n fuzzy making to find that mine are actually better than a few! (in my opinion).
at 7:33 pm
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Well i`m in quite a good mood at the minute, so it feels a bit funny that i`m gonna have a rant. I`ve been holding this in all day really so I should let it out.
Am I the only human being who literally 'wouldn`t hurt a fly'? A workmate came in with a wasp clinging onto the back of his jacket. He`d been up in a warm, dark workspace so I guess the wasp had gone their to hibernate (if they do!) or something. Anyway, I managed to remove his passanger from him and the little thing just fell to the ground. All groggy like. It just about manages to get the strength to start to fly when this other guy I work with took this almighty swipe with this foot and kicked it across the room!
Now, I know it`s 'only a wasp' but come on! There was no need for that. The wasp landed on a table and was clearly injured. One leg looked all broken up and it couldn`t seem to walk straight or anything. I ended up having to kill it as quickly as I could.
It just fucks me off when people do such pointless things. Kicking a wasp to death or kicking a puppy to death, I personally do not differentiate between animals. Then!..then!..the guy said 'aww, I feel kinda sorry for it now'. Then why the fuck do it in the first place!
Maybe i`m too soft, but I think i`d rather be that way sometimes.
at 7:38 pm
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Aspiring rock gods can at last create their own guitar solos - without ever having to pick up a real instrument, thanks to a group of Finnish computer science students.
The Virtual Air Guitar project, developed at the Helsinki University of Technology, adds genuine electric guitar sounds to the passionately played air guitar.
Using a computer to monitor the hand movements of a "player", the system adds riffs and licks to match frantic mid-air finger work. By responding instantly to a wide variety of gestures it promises to turn even the least musically gifted air guitarist to a virtual fret board virtuoso.
Aki Kanerva, Juha Laitinen and Teemu Mäki-Patola came up with the idea after being invited to develop a virtual instrument as part of their coursework. "The first thing that came to mind was an air guitar," Kanerva told New Scientist....more
at 7:41 pm
LOS ANGELES Nov 23, 2005 — "Alias" is going undercover for good. The spy drama starring Jennifer Garner will end its five-season run in May, ABC announced Wednesday, promising a big finish.
"'Alias' is not going to wind down as it comes to an end, it's going to rev up, and we're going to make it the event it deserves to be," ABC Entertainment President Stephen McPherson said in a statement.
The series co-stars Victor Garber, Ron Rifkin, Carl Lumbly and Kevin Weisman. It was created by executive producer J.J. Abrams, who is also part of ABC's popular "Lost."
more at yahoo
at 7:26 pm
Well the snow didn`t last long, soon turned into rain. And now it`s just bloody cold n wet n miserable. Hasn`t been the most interesting of days really. The boss came back to work from yet another holiday which probably didn`t help anybody`s mood. He filled my workroom with his new toy...a karaoke machine. I put it all just outside of my room and when I got back off delivery it was all pretty much set up. 2 bloody great speakers set up! We`re such a professional company.
Trying to find a use for an old 200Mhz PC, other than as a doorstop. I`ve been thinking of sticking Linux on it and setting it up next to the tv just for internet access and check tv schedules. Something else for my girlfriend to sigh, shake her head at me about and ask me 'why?'. Other than 'because I can' I don`t really have a proper answer. Maybe i`m as bad as my boss and his wonderful Ideas.
at 6:35 pm
Saturday, November 26, 2005
17 January 1971 - 25 November 2005
It is with very great sadness that we must announce the death of Richard Burns, the 2001 FIA World Rally Champion. Burns, who was diagnosed with an astrocytoma, a form of brain tumour, in November 2003 passed away last night Friday 25th November peacefully. His partner Zoe, family and close friends were at his bedside.
From the outset Richard knew that the odds were heavily against him and yet he fought his illness with bravery and good humour. Having undergone both chemotherapy and radiotherapy he was able to leave hospital in summer 2004. For a while his health showed signs of improvement but then after six months it once again began to decline. Determined not to give up, he opted for surgery earlier this year. This alleviated some of the symptoms of his illness and enabled him to remain active. At Castle Combe in August he attended a parade of the rally cars that he drove throughout his career and was touched by the warmth of the reception he received. However there was to be no miracle and in recent days he lapsed into a coma.
Taken from http://www.richardburns.com/
at 11:38 am
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Here's a list of some funny URLs, where the designer didn't thinking about how people would read the name of the site:
1) Who Represents?, a database for agencies to the rich and famous:
2) Experts Exchange, a knowledge base where programmers can exchange
advice and views:
3) Looking for a pen? Look no further than Pen Island:
4) Need a therapist?
5) Mole Station Native Nursery, based in New South Wales:
6) Gas central heating anyone?
7) New to Milan and you need electric light? Why not sign up on-line with
at 7:15 pm
A girl came skipping home from school one day.
"Mummy, Mummy," she yelled, "we were counting today, and all the other
could only count to 4, but I counted to 10.
See? 1,2,3,4,5,6, 7,8,9,10!"
"Very good," said her mother.
"Is it because I'm blonde, Mummy?"
"Yes, it's because you're blonde," her mother replied.
The next day, the girl came skipping home from school.
"Mummy, Mummy," she yelled, "we were saying the alphabet today, and all
other kids could only say it to D, but I said it to G.
See? A, B, C, D, E, F, G!"
"Very good," said her mother.
"Is it because I'm blonde, Mummy?"
"Yes, pumpkin, it's because you're blonde."
The next day the girl came skipping home from school.
"Mummy, Mummy," she yelled, "we were in gym class today, and when we
showered, all the other girls had flat chests, but I have these!"
And she lifted her tank top to reveal a pair of 36Cs.
"Very good," said her embarrassed mother.
"Is it because I'm blonde, Mummy?"
"No ... it's because you're 25."
at 12:48 pm
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Oh yeah, had a really weird dream last night. Don`t usually remember them so thought i`d write it down cos i`m bound to forget to tell Z about it.
Anyway, apparently I went to the ballet. Or was it the opera? Well, whichever, the main star was Rachel Stevens, mmm, nice. I went with a guy I work with, i`ll just call him S. Well, this opera/ballet thing went on for a while. So I started to look around at the other people in the place. We had one of those balcony/boxes type things. In the next box was my ex-girlfriend i`ll call N. She was there with another girl. Who I assumed was her girlfriend for some strange reason. Anyway, we keep smiling at each other and as the opera/ballet was droaning on we both creep out the back of our boxes for a chat. We both sit on the floor, backs against the wall and just start talking about God knows what. We then start flicking crisps into our boxes at the people we came with.
We do this until we get bored n go back in to see what is going on. The curtain has gone down and the peeps we came with are fast asleep. The place is still full tho. We go back out for a laugh about our snoozing friends and decide we should wake them up and go our seperate ways. So we go into our boxes and our friends have gone! In fact the whole place is empty. Deathly silent, then one by one the lights start to go out until we are in pitch darkness.
Things go a little fuzzy after that, I think I woke up soon afterwards cos I remember thinking to myself 'what the hell was all that about'.
I need one of those books to understand dreams!
at 7:34 pm
Ok, i`m in a funny mood. Must be something to do with the weather cos my girlfriend is in a funny mood. I`m just pissed off with everything. This post is so gonna be nothing but a whine and a bitch from me.
I get days when all I want is to be on my own, alone. Nothing and nobody around me. I get days when i`m the exact opposite. And I get days when I don`t know what the hell I want. I think it`s the build up to Christmas. I have no idea what to get my girlfriend. Which isn`t much of a problem cos I have no money anyway. Which is something else. I`m sick of having no money. I work my arse off 5 days a week and have nothing to show for it.
Which isn`t true I guess, I have a nice house, nice car and we can afford cable tv, broadband and a few other nice things. But thats it. No spare money. Hardly any savings. It`s just the situation at the minute. Z only works one day a week at the minute, so I know it could get better. Which is probably it. She complains when she has to get up for her one day a week at work when I`m dragging my arse out of bed at 7:30 5 times a week. I`m just jealous I guess, lol.
I wish I had a bit of talent. Turn this blog into a million pound publication. But I guess there are a million other people out there doing the same. There are 15 year old kids making a ton of money with their web businesses! I guess I missed the boat. I`m just feeling sorry for myself which is stupid cos my lot is better than many people`s.
at 7:12 pm
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Been out in the fresh air doing manly type things. Had to prune (decimate) our row of trees as they`re blocking sunlight to the back garden due to them being nearly as tall as our house!
T`was quite good fun in the end despite me doing my best to put it off and pray for rain. Did a countryside management course years ago, it all came flooding back when I found myself wobbling at the top of the ladder with a saw in my hand.
Christmas shopping is coming along nicely. Except for getting stuff for my girlfriend. I just have no idea. I`m hopeless. I`m scouring ebay but nothing seems suitable. Maybe it`s beacuse i`m not in a panic yet, maybe my brain needs that last minute kick of adrenalin to start my creative process.
Enjoyed having a long weekend off work tho. Counting down the days until I break up for christmas. Whenever that is. I hope I have lots of work to go back to. Trying not to worry about the lack of work we have, it`s the time of year when we are slack. But not this slack. If the worse happens and we go down to a four day week then i have plans. But I fear if we did go to four days then the company would fold. Nobody can afford a drop in wages. I`m trying not to worry, but at least i`m prepared for it. I think.
at 4:37 pm
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Ok, getting all christmasy now. It`s nearly December, i`m sat at my pc looking out the window at a white backgarden. The frost is really heavy this morning. Always start to feel christmasy when it gets like this.
I haven`t really grown out of Christmas yet. I don`t get as excited about getting presents now, well not overly excited to the point where I can`t breath! But it`s the whole 'goodwill to all mankind' business. Apart from mankind can go fuck itself, goodwill to all my friends and animals everywhere is more like it.
A couple of weeks off work, a box of biscuits for cheese and a bottle of port for that midday snack, tons of food and drink and Christmas tv and i`m happy :)
Made a bit of money on ebay selling old books n stuff so have a bit of spare cash to buy my girlfriend some presents. I`m hopeless at present buying. I`d love to be spontaneous and surprise her with lots of little things. But my brain doesn`t seem to have the imagination to do things like that sometimes. So I sit on amazon and ebay getting frustrated because I can`t find the things I want, mainly cos I don`t know what those things are!
She seems to find it easy. Maybe it`s because i`m interested in so many things that there`s always something suitable for me.
at 8:13 am
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Story on Yahoo news reads: "Yahoo news is reporting that the great works of literature often read and discussed by the brighter of our up-and-comers could be the latest victim of reaching the lowest common denominator at the potential expense of everyone. The article describes the efforts of Dot Mobile to make such literary masterpieces as Hamlet and Romeo and Juliet more accessible. From the article, 'We are confident that our version of 'text' books will genuinely help thousands of students remember key plots and quotes, and raise up educational standards rather than decrease levels of literacy,'" Link
I must be getting old because this just makes me cringe. Ok, i`ll write more when i`ve recovered. And my tea is ready :)
at 7:47 pm
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Bird killed for knocking over dominoes
By David Pescovitz
David Pescovitz: The Associated Press reports that, "A sparrow knocked over 23,000 dominoes in the Netherlands, nearly ruining a world record attempt before it was shot to death Monday." Link
UPDATE: BB reader Vincent Eveleigh writes, "Now the dutch weblog Geenstijl.nl and a famous dutch DJ Ruud de Wild are both offering a reward of respectively 1000 and 3000 euro's to the first person to knock over the domino's as revenge for the bird that was killed." Link
UPDATE: BB reader B10m says this Dutch news article reports that the man who shot the bird may have received death threats. Link
Well, as I type this my wonderful girlfriend is preparing our tea. She`s talked me into trying burgers with leek in. Now, anybody who knows me knows I have the weirdest phobia towards food known to man. Phobia isn`t really the right word. But i`m fussy. I`m beyond fussy.
Most of it is psycological. I have a long list of foods I don`t like and if I find i`m eating something containing an item of food off my hit list I will want to be sick. Anything containing fruit or vegetables in any quantity is an instant no no. So why was I okay when my (wonderful) girlfriend baked a chocolate and apple cake and I had a big slice? I couldn`t really taste the apple, I couldn`t tell I was eating it but I knew I was eating it.
It really is annoying as it stops me eating a lot off what otherwise look wonderful meals. It`s a nightmare at restaraunts. Altho I usually have the fish!
I think my girlfriend is changing the way my brain views food little by little. I don`t think i`ll ever just grab a tomato and start eating it
If I never post anything else after this then you know the leek was not okay.
at 7:08 pm
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Woo, downloaded and listened to couple of podcasts this morning, including The Mike Tech Show. He gave a shoutout to me about the message I left him on skype!...woo. Ok, so it`s not gonna set me on the road to stardom but it was a cool moment :)
Nothing exciting to tell. Had a lazy day, some of my stuff seems to be selling on ebay, so that`ll be a few pennies for Christmas. Trying not to spend too much this year as we bought a new car and have to be careful with the money, so i`m trying novel new ways to get Christmas presents without spending too much. All legal of course! Pigsback is one such site where you can earn points towards vouchers, online surveys is another altho that takes a while to earn enough money to be worthwile. So I resort to selling stuff that`s been gathering dust for a while on ebay.
Really want to buy 2 more pet rats. We went to the pet shop yesterday and they had 2 really cute looking little girls. They were housed on sawdust which is terrible for their respiration. One was sneezing some and I nearly bought them on the spot. But we haven`t really got the room for them. It broke my heart walking out of there without them and I haven`t been able to stop worrying about them since.
Keep telling myself I can`t save every animal, doesn`t help though.
at 7:25 pm
Saturday, November 12, 2005
There's a danger you know.
You can't own just one, for the craving will grow.
There's no doubt they're addictive, wherein lies the danger
While living with lots, you'll grow poorer and stranger.
One cat is not trouble, and two are so funny,
The third one is easy, the fourth one's a honey
The fifth is delightful, the sixth ones a breeze.
You find you can live with a house full, with ease.
So how 'bout another? Would you really dare?
They're really quite easy, but Oh Lord, the hair!
With cats on the sofa and cats on the bed,
And crates in the kitchen, its no bother, you said.
They're really no trouble, their manners are great.
What's just one more cat and one more little crate?
The sofa is hairy, the windows are crusty.
The floor is all footprints, the furniture's dusty.
The housekeeping suffers, but what do you care?
Who minds a few nose prints and a little more hair?
So let's keep a kitten, you can always find room.
And a little more time for the dust cloth and broom.
There's hardly a limit to the cats you can add
the thought of a cutback, sure makes you feel sad.
Each one is special, so useful, so funny,
The food bill grows larger, you owe the vet money.
Your folks never visit, few friends come to stay,
Except other cat folks, who live the same way.
Your lawn has now died and your shrubs are dead, too.
Your weekends are busy, you're off with your crew.
There's cat food and vitamins, grooming and shots
And entries and travel and motels, which cost lots.
Is it worth it you wonder? Are you caught in a trap?
Then that favorite comes up and climbs in your lap.
His look says you're special and you know that you will
Keep all of the kittens in spite of the bill.
Some just for showing and some just to breed
And some just for loving, they all fill a need.
Late evening is awful, you scream and you shout
At the cats on the sofa, who refuse to get up.
The cats and the cat shows, the travel, the thrills
The work and the worry, the pressure, the bills.
The Whole thing seems worth it, the cats are your life.
They're charming and funny and offset the strife.
Your lifestyle has changed, things just won't be the same.
Yes, those cats are addictive and so is the cat game!
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at 5:47 pm
Friday, November 11, 2005
Well everybody has been full of praise for me today at work. Met a customer and was shaken by the hand because he liked what I did so much. Which was a relief as it was the worst design in the world to try and copy.
And then within a few minutes of that I was complimented on another design i`d done for a different customer. Could get used to all this adoration for my work. A payrise and a few tips would be nice as well though.
Well Team Paddy is up and running on the folding@homewebsite. So far my team consists of me, my girlfriend and my mum. It`s turning quite competative as my mum seems to have the edge on us!
The tragic part is I upgraded their computers and now I have the slowest computer in the family!
at 10:04 pm
Thursday, November 10, 2005
I`ve decided. I`m going senile. There`s this music hour on the radio. Top 10 at 10. It plays the top 10 of a given year and you have to guess that year. Plays pretty much all 80`s stuff. So there`s me and Rob, both in our mid 30`s. Prime 80`s music listening candidates. And pretty much for the whole hour all you can hear is us going.
"Ooh, yeah, I know this"
"Yeah, me too...ooh, on the tip of my tongue"
"Hmm, yeah, lead singer is, oh what's his name"
"I know it. I know I know it"
Pretty sad really. Unless it`s something blindingly obvious and I still listen to it now then my brain is beginning to let me down.
Also doesn`t help that we work with a 17 year old who must look at us and think 'what a couple of old fogies!'
But I decided a while ago not to care. I intend to grow old disgracefully. My girlfriend often wonders if i`ll be the only 80 year old with a lip ring. I still listen to rock in all its forms. Still love sci-fi/fantasy altho refuse to go to conventions. And don`t think i`ll ever have a respectable haircut!
Maybe that`s what will keep me young. I see other`s around me of the same age and they all just seem so old. Some even seemed old when we were 16. Maybe it`s in my genes. My gran still seems young despite suffering with illness. And my mum is more active than me!
Been listening to Marillion and Pink Floyd all day on my Ipod so I think i`m in a bit of a nostalgic mood. If there`s one album that sums up my youth then it`s Pink Floyd`s 'The Wall'. Hands down the best album ever. Got round to buying it on cd after losing my cassette version a while ago. With the one song that`s brought me to tears so many times, Comfortably Numb, I can listen to all 26 tracks now without wanting to self harm. Still brings up the same feelings I had when I was a teenager, but the anger has gone.
Damn, want to play it again now!
at 9:37 pm
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
|The Cure Shares Your Taste in Music|
See their whole playlist here (iTunes required)
at 7:38 pm
Three days after bonfire night and the plebs are still setting fireworks off. Don`t they get bored of them! I never did the see the attraction of them. Even when I was younger.
Been doing my best not to get too addicted to Blogthing. Doing well so far and only posted one result of a quiz so far, but i`m sure more will follow. I also really need a faster net connection 1Mb connection with a 3Gb cap seemed more than enough at one point. But the faster I surf the more things I find to download. And if all my favourite podcasts go video which they seem to be doing then I`m gonna hit 3Gb in a day let alone a month.
Discussed ways to save money on the electric bill with my girlfriend and am going to give a concerted effort in a bid to knock our electric usage down. It`s just so easy to plug more and more things in and leave them plugged in without realising they`re using power. In the computer room alone we have three 8 plug multisockets, all full! 24 things plugged in and running nearly 24/7!!! I`m surprised the house doesn`t glow.
at 7:09 pm
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Stole this from lhlaney`s blog who stole it from somebody else, etc, etc
A is for age: 35
B is for booze of choice: Vodka
C is for career: Tech hardware reviewer (i wish)
D is for your dad's name: Michael
E is for essential items to bring to a party: Vodka!
F is for favorite song at the moment: Fiend - Coal Chamber
G is for favorite game: Neverwinter Nights on the pc
H is for hometown: Scunthorpe, UK
I is for instruments you play: none
J is for jam or jelly you like: Strawberry
K is for kids: none, plenty of pets tho!
L is for living arrangements: me, girlfriend, 3 guinea pigs, 2 cats, 1 rat
M is for mom's name: Maureen
N is for name of your crush: 1st crush Suzzanne in 1986
O is for overnight hospital stays: 1 to have my tonsils out
P is for phobias: none I can think of
Q is for quotes you like: 'Smoke me a kipper, i`ll be back for breakfast' - Ace, AKA Rimmer from Red Dwarf
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: Ex Wife, 1988 - 2002
S is for sexual preference: women
T is for time you wake up: 7:30am
U is for underwear: yes
V is for vegetable you love: urgh, none
W is for weekend plans: 48 hours playing Neverwinter Nights
X is for x-rays you've had: 1 when I got my arm broken
Y is for yummy food you make: veggie sausage, bacon, burger n cheese in a bun
Z is for zodiac sign: Taurus
at 7:43 pm
Checked my gas and electric account this morning after I submitted new meter readings. Got a bit of a shock, excuse the pun. It`s difficult to tell how it`ll pan out until the end of the year. But it looks like we`re using more than we`re paying for.
I`m sure there`s ways to cut down. We have a lot of computer stuff running, some of it 24/7. Gonna find a way to cut back on the things that don`t need to be left on permanently and see if it makes a difference.
I`m just a worryhead really. I guess it`s better than not caring and letting everything just muddle along. My girlfriend only works one day a week so I panic sometimes that not enough money is coming into the house no matter how many times I stare at my financies in excel.
I worry about my job. A lot of similar companies are putting their workers on shortime. Something we`ve never had to, but I just worry cos I know we`ll be screwed if it came to that.
I worry about our new car. Even tho if we`d stayed as we were with seperate cars we`d be paying out a lot more than we are doing now.
I worry about our house, cos i`m not diy minded in the slightest! And i`m such a lazy sod and would prefer to just sit at my computer and take a break from the real world.
I worry about my girlfriend. She has had to make so many changes in her life to be with me.
Anyway, i`m going to relax in the bath and read my pc format and look at all the things i`d love to have but can`t afford.
at 6:03 pm
Monday, November 07, 2005
Well my girlfriend reads my blog now so I better be careful what I type. Have I mentioned how lovely she is, lol.
Except when it comes to computers. She better than the average person. But sometimes it takes some explaining about things. I`m not the best teacher in the world which doesn`t help and I have the patience of a saint who`s failed the 'being as patient as a saint' exam. Sometimes I wish she would just say 'ah yeah, right' like I made perfect sense. Then go to something like wikipedia and find a better explanation!
Our rat`s foot is so much better today. Had to try and get some medicine down him which was fun. And thank God bonfire night is over. Still got a few fireworks going off but nothing like it was over the weekend. Both our poor cats were so stressed. And the EU want to make the damn things louder! A couple landed in the garden as well.
Ok, grumble over with
at 8:22 pm
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Friday, November 04, 2005
God I must be getting old. Got fireworks going off all over the place and i`m sick of hearing them. It`s gonna be worse tomorrow night. Sick of reading stories in the paper of twisted scum using fireworks on animals. Tried to avoid a story in the paper about some thugs subjecting a small dog to a firework attack that litteraly blew it to pieces! It`s amazing that this country is such a nanny state, and supposedly fighting terrorism, yet every year these things that get more and more like small bombs are sold to the public like they`re damn sweets or something.
Well, our cats are safely inside. And if I look out the window and see any cat roaming the streets they`ll be inside as well! Had to take our rat to the vets tonight as his foot has swollen right up. No idea what has caused it to happen. But he had some injections and we`ve got some antibiotics that somehow we have to get down him.
at 9:29 pm
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Well my neck feels a lot better today. Been coming home and soaking in a hot bath straight from work, and doing my best not to move it much at night. Thank God!
Had my first experiance buying from Ebuyer. Must admit I was pleasantly surprised. Not heard good reports of Ebuyer`s customer service. But my girlfriend has had several things off them with no problems. So thought i`d give them a go. Only bought a 8 socket surge protector as i`m running out of places to plug things in! Using an old 60Gb PC as a backup to mine and my girlfriends pc`s. Found a really cool link to a site showing how to make an old vcr into a pet food dispenser!...might have to give that a go with my old video recorder.
Me and Zara are being a bit snappy with each other of late. Can`t put my finger on the problem to be honest. Maybe we need a break from each other as we pretty much do everything together, maybe it`s a bit too much. Although our two cats are at each others throats, so maybe it`s something in the air!
Well gonna go put things in ebay tonights as it`s cheap listings night. Gonna try n save up for a tivo...sigh, so many things, so little money.
at 6:09 pm
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Well I don`t know what i`ve done, but my neck is killing me. Been all achey for about a week, but for the past couple of days I haven`t been able to move it very far to the right. Goes all tight and get a real sharp shooting pain up my neck. So i`m soaking in a really hot bath up to my neck!
Been having a signing up frenzy today. No wonder I get so much spam. I`m a sucker for signing up to websites tho. Got a profile and pics on Bebo and one on WAYN . I`m gonna get a atalker one of these days, lol. Bebo is pretty cool. Not as good as Flickr I think but i`ll stick with it as i`ve got a friend using that one. Not really keen on WAYN, but another friend put me that way so i`ll give it a try but don`t think i`ll keep using it.
Well I guess I should be relaxing with a book instead of stretching over the side of the bath to use my laptop. Just started reading DragonLance chronicles. With that and playing Neverwinter Nights my fantasy phase has really kicked in!
at 5:48 pm
Monday, October 31, 2005
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Well my arm and hand aches from attempting to carve spooky images into pumpkins. Managed to do a vampire skull fairly well. My pumpkin is kinda going soft which doesn`t help tho.
Made a valiant attempt at cooking sunday dinner today. Girlfriend left me to it. So we had yorkshire puddings that looked more like pancakes and enough roast potatoes to feed the street! Still, it tasted ok so thats the main thing.
Finally got round to buying Neverwinter Nights deluxe edition for the pc today. Gotta love rpg games! Finished the original game a while ago, lent it to a mate who turned into a wanker and still has it! So went out and bought the original game with the two expansion packs. Going through a real fantasy phase at the minute. Working my way through the Dragonlance books.
I sure I used to only read fantasy because all the women were scantily clad, or naked...not sure what the reason is now. Probably the same!
at 10:25 pm
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Well, getting into the halloween spirit. Girlfriend is busy hollowing out pumpkins for me to annihilate attempting to carve a spooky face onto it. Got a (hopefully) scary film to watch as well.
Got fireworks going off all over the place. I hate fireworks. Well, I hate them for our animal`s sake. Scares the crap out of our two cats. The whole bonfire night tends to pass me by to be honest. I think it gets further and further away from the actual meaning as the years go by. I`m all for organised bonfire parties. But I reckon they should not sell fireworks to the general public. If nothing else it`ll stop little fuckers shoving lighted ones into cats mouths and other such horrific things.
Got the first bit of Christmas shopping done. Bought a Budweiser gift set for my girlfriend`s sister`s husband. Bud tastes like nats piss to me so it`ll be safe until we can give it to him.
at 10:24 pm
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Made my first skype to skype call earlier! ok it wasn`t to talk to a person. Got to leave a voicemail message to a podcaster. The MikeTechShow is one of the coolest podcasts around. I spend most of my days listening to podcasts instead of music on my ipod. Anyway, left a typical nerdy 'i think your show is great' type message so it wasn`t exactly a momentous occassion. Took me most of the damn afternoon getting my headphone settings right so I could hear properly. Wasn`t until I found the volume control on the headset that I realised what was going wrong!
Anyway, skype me if you`ve got it. I`ve got voicemail so leave a message so I feel all warm n popular!
at 9:35 pm
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Just in from work and feel the need to vent! Had a little 'chat' with the guy who runs the shop floor. Apparently 'someone' told him I took a little too long on a delivery on Monday! They obviously felt the need to wait until today to run to Rob, whose been on holiday the past couple of days, and tell him of my misdemeanor.
This is starting to happen more and more in my workplace. Feels like we`ve got a spy in the camp. I`m not the only one whose been stung by this. Now I wouldn`t mind if it was warranted. But it wasn`t. Not even close. And i`m starting to think fuck em. If they`re not happy with the way i`m doing things then get somebody else.
I think I need a new job. The bitching and backbiting is really starting to piss me off. Trouble is, i`m on good money. And as my girlfriend is only part time then we need all the money we can get. Things might change in the future regarding her job. The moment is done i`m out.
There, I feel better now. I`m big enought to take a bollocking when i`m in the wrong. But i`ll be fucked if i`m taking it when i`m only doing my job. Fortunately Rob is a decent bloke and knows me better than that.
Ok, i`m done....i`m calm...i`m relaxed....I think!
at 4:33 pm
Monday, October 24, 2005
My girlfriend is in a right state. Her sis has been texting her all evening so far. It`s so hard seeing her upset and being so helpless. Her sister doted on Amber, she was like a little child to her. She was her life, and now it`s gone. Life really does suck sometimes.
We only saw her (Amber) yesterday, and now she`s dead. She was laying on our bed, playing. It doesn`t seem real. At least whoever hit her had the decency to take her to the vets. But the vet said she wouldn`t have known what hit her so didn`t suffer. Which is something I guess.
It doesn`t help (in some ways) that we have Garfield, Amber`s brother. My girlfriend just looks at him and bursts into tears.
Some people probably think this is all a bit much. Getting so upset over a cat. But our animals are more than that. They`re a part of our family. And to be honest, a lot more preferable to people sometimes.
at 10:50 pm
Sunday, October 23, 2005
A 3 hour drive home down a rainy M1 with roadworks n accidents and i`m knackered! Had a cracking weekend tho. Got to my girlfriend`s sister`s house at about 8:30 friday night and ate tons of pizza and watched crappy tv. Laid in way too long on Saturday and rushed around like a mad thing trying to put a suit on and tie a bloody tie properly! And yes, you read that right...I wore a suit!
The wedding went really well. As in, ate loads of food and got pissed. Ended up videoing the wedding itself which was pretty cool. Wasn`t a big do, we left at about 10pm and went to the pub. So the night ended just before midnight after drinking vodka, bitter, wine, champagne and more vodka...not all in the same glass tho!
Went for a meal with my girlfriend, her sis and husband at their dad and his girlfriend`s house today. Got loads of computer bits n stuff to sell on ebay so ended coming home with more things than we came with.
Survived the weekend quite well considering me and my girlfriend slept in a single bed and managed to avoid any embarrassing moments meeting her sis on the way to the toilet!
So gonna soak in the bath cos I ache like mad, then rip an old pc apart to see what I can scrounge out of it.
Need another weekend to recover from this one.
Friday, October 21, 2005
Just in from work. Getting ready to leave. Keep forgetting to mention, if anybody uses skype then leave me a message at paddee28. Been nice now :)
at 4:51 pm
Well this`ll be my last post before the weekend. Off down to Oxford for my girlfriend`s Mum`s 2nd wedding! Gonna be a bit weird as it`s only going to be the wedding then a meal! No evening do!...what`s that all about? no nighttime piss up!
Anyway, staying with her sis and her husband so should be a laugh at any rate. Wish i`d had an earlier night last night. Gotta work all day then drive 180 miles. Urgh.
at 7:51 am
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Ok, too knackered to post anything meaningful so did a quiz to find out which sc-fi character i`d be....
A strong presence who organizes efforts yet shuns consensus, you strive to educate others for the benefit of your causes.
Don't center on your anxiety, Obi-Wan. Keep your concentration on the here and now where it belongs.
Ok, that`ll do for now. This Jedi Master needs some food and a bath!
at 8:40 pm
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
This story is in all the papers today...if anybody knows her address i`d love to pay her a personal visit! Apparently she`s only been jailed for 6 weeks.
A sick mum took revenge on her annoying cat by boiling it to death in the washing machine.
Fluffy took up to ten minutes to die — breaking his claws as he tried desperately to escape, a court heard.
Holly Thacker, 34, said the cat became "weird and a bit vicious" and had started living outside the house. JPs were told she admitted her crime to her horrified ex-husband and daughters, aged 15 and five. She said she killed the cat because it scratched her.
Husband Simon, thought she was joking at first — but then Thacker showed him the animal’s body in a wheelie bin.
Simon told the Norwich court: "The cat was dead and soaking wet. She said it was a boiling wash. I told her it was disgusting and cruel."
Vet Mark Bestbier said the terror the cat suffered while drowning was revealed by broken claws on all four paws.
He said the reddish colour of the dead cat’s skin showed the water she drowned in was warm.
He said: "The disorientation of a rotating drum and the filling with water would have been a terrifying process."
at 12:40 pm
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
This girl has the cutest hamsters in the world! If you don`t go 'aaah' when you see them then you have no heart!
Escape Night *Kumanoko* on Flickr - Photo Sharing!
at 11:29 pm
Had a better day today. Amazing what a good nights sleep will do. Considering I had a cat welded to my side all last night I think I slept pretty well!
Had to take Garfield (the cat in question) to the vets yesterday to have his yearly vaccination. I think we need a bigger cat box! was a bit of a nightmare getting him in the thing. Altho he was quiet all the way there bless him. He`s been sleepy all day today so i`m wondering if we can give him an injection every day to keep him calm....joke!
I tried sending a post to my blog via my mobile phone, but it didn`t seem to want to work. I shall keep trying until it does work tho, lol. I don`t like it when these things are meant to do wonderful things then don`t. I take it personally, lol.
Well it`s time I did my little ritual of checking my fave websites, gmail, digg, ebay, bloglines, flickr. It`s a bit sad I know, but i`d hate to miss something exciting n techy I could bore my girlfriend rigid with!
at 6:45 pm
Monday, October 17, 2005
Well, doing my best not to let all my depressing thoughts take over my blog. But I guess as i`m the only one viewing it then it doesn`t really matter.
Thought i`d have a better day at work today now the 13th has come and gone. Felt really out of place tho. Kinda disjointed. Didn`t want to be there, do anything. Just didn`t want to be. I know the 13th should be like any other day. I miss my brother every day. It`s difficult to put into words, which kinda makes it all the more difficult when you want to write them down in a blog!
I feel so safe in my own home. Surrounded by the people and animals that rely on me, want me and are there for me. I try and put it down to the fact that I don`t want to work!, but it`s more than that. It`s different to the feeling I get when I just can`t be arsed to work. I think it`s just the time of year. Another 2 months and it would have been David`s birthday. Then it`s Christmas, then my birthday. Urgh, too many anniversaries to remind me i`m on my own.
There, I feel a bit better. Time to let go of the real world and sit on the internet for a while.
at 8:50 pm
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Been to my grandparents today with my grandads birthday cake. Had a great time. Met the goose and gander, and hen that he keeps in the back garden. Got some cool pics of me being kept quiet by gander, lol.
Went for a meal and a wander about the town, was a real nice relaxing day. Crashed out in the bath on my laptop wondering why MY legs ache after walking round town with an 80 year old!
at 9:53 pm
Friday, October 14, 2005
Thursday, October 13, 2005
6 years ago today my world fell apart. Testing his motorbike on a disused airfield David was in collision with a builders van speeding across the airfiled.
My life has never really been the same since. A part of my jigsaw of life is missing and nothing I can do will ever replace it. He was my best friend as well as my brother. We had so much in common. Liked the same films, played the same pc games, rpg`s, watched the same sports. I miss all that. Nobody can take his place where all those things are concerned.
I thought the pain was supposed to get easier to deal with over time. It`s not.
I miss you David.
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at 7:44 am
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
If you knew the people I have to work with every day the you would sooooo agree with this ;)
Smoking associated with lower IQ, study finds: HMnews.org
at 6:16 pm
SpaceWeather.com -- News and information about meteor showers, solar flares, auroras, and near-Earth asteroids
Wow! I am never gonna complain about our weather again!
at 7:44 am
Monday, October 10, 2005
Urgh, Monday morning...late out of bed again. Sat on the loo with my latptop! Gotta get my morning fix of checking emails n fave websites.
PC STILL running Spin Rite looking for hard drive errors. Getting a headache trying to decide which graphics card to upgrade to!
Urgh, Monday morning grumpyness. Damnit....better make a move, gonna be my usual 5 mins late.
at 7:53 am
Sunday, October 09, 2005
You scored as Death. You are death! Reaper of souls!
Riding your horse, Binky, with a scythe at hand.
Always working, always busy.
You sometimes try to socialize with the living, and
ALWAYS SPEAK IN CAPITAL LETTERS.
Which Discworld Character are you like (with pics)
created with QuizFarm.com
at 5:35 pm
Well found out the problem with logging into my blog with 'hello'. Was trying to type the wrong damn username in, sigh. Must try these things when i`m more awake.
Anyway, sat here on the laptop as i`m backing up my main pc cos the hard drive is whining.and i don`t wanna lose all my mp3`s.
Acronis true image is your friend :)
at 5:07 pm
Ooh..this is so cool. Very Star Wars! 'Help me Obi-Wan Kenobi... You're our only hope!'
IO2Technology: Heliodisplay/ Interactive Free-Space Display
I want I want
at 8:50 am
Argh! trying to use Hello to upload pics to blogger. Something so simple should be working except for this damn error:
com.google.blogger.api.UserNotAuthorizedException: We're sorry but the Username/Password combination you've entered is either invalid or you don't have permission to access this Blog.
What the hell is all that about! So much for going back to bed. Can`t rest until i`ve fixed it!
at 8:33 am
Damn it...no matter what time I go to bed I always wake up in time for work. Even on a Sunday!
at 8:14 am
Got 71% on test the nation on BBC1 this evening!...woot!!
Anyway, need my bed!
at 12:35 am
Discworld: Which Ankh-Morpork City Watch Character are YOU?
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Hmm...i`m sure that can`t be right!
at 12:20 am