Sunday, December 18, 2005

The day

I`m sat here feeling kinda detatched from the world.
I think it`s the deer in the water, helpless as their surroundings are consumed.

It`s like a switch has been flipped inside me.

I`ve been sat here trying to think how to spend the day. Yesterday I was feeling fine. I build today up so much I end up not knowing how to get through it.

So I surfed the web a bit, checked ebay for last minute gifts, read my bloglines rss feeds. And came across this pic from a website. I don`t know why, but it seems to sum up how I feel at the minute.

My stomach knots up and I feel a lump in my throat as I look at the deer. Wishing I could help them, feeling their fear. I empathise far too much.

Happy Birthday David.

I miss you.